Caoine

today

listening to stuck in my head: soft cell - sex dwarf

craving: a vacation

last night: i went home mid afternoon and assured my landlord that no, i'm not dead and yes i'll be alive to pay my rent tomorrow. my apartment's a bit of a wreck - a combination of never having fully cleaned up from when spencer moved out and not having had time to keep the place clean, since i'm never really there. so i whipped out the good ol' clorox-cleanup [with bleach!] and cleaned my bathroom. it's a start, at least. i still need to vacuum and do laundry. these things take time.

watched american beauty again. i like it. good stuff. it's horribly overdue, of course. i hear the kozmo.com hitmen are after me. it's okay though, i bought myself some sunglasses. no way they'll see through my flawless disguise.

spent some time fucking around on the web... the difference between my t3 at work and my dialup at home is like the difference between drinking a glass of milk and trying to suck the cow through a straw, but still. a connection is a connection, i tell myself. i've started hanging around in #altgothic on efnet. unfortunately, my fucking nick is over nine characters, so i'm on as emma instead.

james called around ten or so, and i talked to him for eighty five minutes, according to my cell phone. the remarkable thing about this is that when he called i'd just started on a lollipop - one of those fancy schmancy gourmet coffee-flavored lollipops that the cashier at ricky's gave me when i bought fifty dollars' worth of fake hair. now, i'm not exactly a lollipop connoisseur, but this was a damn good lollipop. as i said, i'd just started it when james called and it lasted through nearly the entire eighty five minute conversation. and it's coffee flavored. woo. my life is mighty entertaining, no?

estimated hours of sleep: fiveish. i'm a bad girl.

so far today: went to the store where i usually buy my oj & bagel only to realize - smacking-of-forehead ensues - that i'm broke. until a week from thursday. what fun. but hey, i had that lollipop just last night and there's free coffee at work, so i should be set.

current plans for later today: i might attempt some more apartment cleaning tonight. we'll see how thrilling that prospect seems when i get home from work. or maybe i'll just go play star wars monopoly at spencer's until it's really late and i miss the last Q and it takes me forever to get home. either way.

what else: you know, i used to read userfriendly pretty much every day, but it's significantly less entertaining than it used to be. and then i started reading after y2k, but the creators have gone on a rather hefty hiatus. so now i'm sticking to penny arcade, which is hilarious despite the fact that i'm nowhere near enough of a gamer to appreciate all the subtle innuendo.

today

listening to: cocteau twins - treasure

craving: a cherry sluuuuuuurpee.

last night: spencer and i were at work until maybe eleven, setting up a workstation for this new guy who's starting tuesday. then we wandered home and played a couple of games of star wars trivial pursuit - i should watch the triology again. i'm rusty on all the names of the imperial officers. after that, i read poppy z brite and spencer read something or other until we fell asleep.

estimated hours of sleep: dunno... tennish? nineish? something like that. enough, for once.

so far today: we woke up noonish and somehow managed to kill two hours... then spencer headed back to the office and i caught a cab for home, for the first time in a week. it's nice being back at my place - the last time i slept here was nearly two weeks ago, and since then i've been back only twice for clothes and such and only for about ten minutes each time. my landlord figured i'd been mugged or something, heh. he says my phone's been ringing off the hook and my mail's been piling up and i really ought to let him know if i'm going to disappear like that. he's cool.

current plans for later today: hmm. i could go back to manhattan and do errands, i guess, but i think i'm going to end up lounging around here, cleaning up a bit and doing some work. maybe watch a movie or something. catch up on my email, pay my bills, et cetera. be alone for a little while.

what else: banshee has been running smoothly for the entire time i've been gone. she's such a sweetie. i come home after more than a week of not being here and she wakes up like it's been twenty minutes.

today

listening to: the cruxshadows

craving: i want more life, fucker. heh. sorry, i watched blade runner again last night.

last night: spencer and i were here till tennish, then we wandered home and watched a fish called wanda and blade runner again. blade runner was the director's cut, and i can't decide if i like it more or less than the original version. i'm more used to the other version of course.

estimated hours of sleep: i have no idea. after the movies, we went to bed, but stayed up talking for hours. we woke up around one or two today, so i probably got plenty of sleep but i don't know how much.

so far today: we lazed around for a bit, then had lunch at this diner on the corner. it was cool, their grilled cheese was delish. and spencer approves of the way they make their milkshakes. now we're at the office. spencer's got a shitload of work to do; i've got work too, but i'm also working on some of my own stuff for a change.

current plans for later today: the cruxshadows are playing at downtime tonight. spencer and i have tickets, but he lost his wallet a few days ago. this means that a) he has no ID to prove he's over 18 and b) no ID to prove that he's the one who bought the tickets, when we go to pick them up. so this means that if i go, i'm going by myself and i'm probably going to have to buy another ticket. so i'm probably not going. which sucks, but ah well. life goes on.

what else: blah.

today

listening to: stuck in my head i have a) that old eighties song called something like "love is a battlefield"... you know, the "we are young" one. heh. and also b) portishead - sour times

craving: not sleep! woo. i actually got plenty of it last night. it meant i didn't get to go to lbv, but oh well. right now i'm craving... hm. a bagel, i suppose. the weekend, which is nearly here.

last night: i went over to st mark's place after work and tried on a lot of clothing i can't afford, then bought some more eyeliner. it was rainy and cold and both of us were kind of tired and not in the mood to go out, so spencer and i decided to forego long black veil.

estimated hours of sleep: hm... it was kind of broken up and interrupted and whatnot, but i think in total i had about nine hours. huzzah.

so far today: it's too humid out today, bleh. i have accomplished exactly diddly, but i'm in a pretty good mood.

current plans for later today: no idea. i need to work until four or five [it's supposed to be two on fridays, but i got here late this morning], and after that i don't know. spencer and i might go to addiction, but then again we might not.

what else: new pictures soon. i promise.

today

listening to: peter murphy - cuts you up [there's a lovely streaming video version of it here]

craving: sleep, obviously. and the weekend. and more money.

last night: i was at work until about midnight catching up on a lot of different shit that needed to get done. spencer ended up working till about four, so i borrowed his keys and collapsed as soon as i got back to the apartment. it was raining all day yesterday, but not too heavily last night, so i got to stroll home in the drizzle and the dark. it was kind of nice. then i turned the air conditioner up and crawled under spencer's super-warm comforter and i slept really well.

estimated hours of sleep: seven. that's an improvement, at least.

so far today: woke up a little before eight, got dressed at lightspeed, and walked to work in the rain again. now my clothes are soaked and i'm sitting here in my freezing office and it's not terribly pleasant, but at least i have some really good coffee.

current plans for later today: i get paid today, woo! and i'd really like to go to long black veil tonight. i haven't been since they re-opened it after mother closed. so ideally, i'll be finished here by six, go cash my check, and head down to st mark's place. there's a top i saw at the fifth wheel that i want to try on, and i need some more eyeliner, if such a thing is possible.

what else: i had so much caffeine yesterday and was so tired in spite of it that i got really irritable and jittery. never fun. i'm feeling a little better today, though.

today

listening to: stuck in my head is some club song i don't know the name of. it's in the intro to the pittsburgh c7 proposal on altgothic.com, if you want to go listen to it. incidentally, vote nyc for c7.

craving: sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep

last night: spencer and i were here till tennish, then we went home and were lazy. we watched eyes wide shut which i rented from kozmo.com ages ago and which is painfully overdue. see, theoretically, i ought to be going to bed between two and three hours earlier than spencer does, more if i'm in brooklyn. i have to be at work at nine and i'm usually here a little after eight thirty, he has to be here at eleven and he's usually here around eleven thirty. yet we both end up going to sleep around two thirty or three, and i end up tired. i suppose, though, that i could look at it as me fitting more hours into my day. on the other hand, those hours are viewed through a fog of sleepiness.

estimated hours of sleep: i don't want to think about it.

so far today: it was pouring as i was walking to work today. it's about a twenty minute walk and i don't have an umbrella. i like rain, but not when i have to be out in it without more than a t shirt, and then go sit in my wet clothes in an over-air-conditioned basement for ten hours.

current plans for later today: i still haven't been home for more than ten minutes since... let's see. thursday morning of last week. i've been to my house twice to get money and clean clothes. i don't really have any particular desire to go back at the moment, though. it's nice being in manhattan. and i get paid tomorrow. i suppose i have to go home on the first to pay my rent, though. today i suppose i'll just be working, then spencer and i will do whatever after work and i won't get enough sleep again. for all the lack of sleep, though, i have to admit i'm having fun.

what else: you can take a look at the new site i'm working on, if you want. it's still heavily under construction, but i'd welcome comments, contributions, or submissions. it's going to be a web deisgn resource, and it's located at disintegrate.org.

today

listening to: in my head, i'm listening to rasputina - how we quit the forest. in reality, i'm listening to my own typing and the jet-engine sound effects of the air conditioner.

craving: more sleep. i was doing so well there for a while, getting seven or eight hours a night. spencer's corrupting me again.

last night: i went home at six to get my work bag and some more clothes and such, then came back into manhattan and was back at the office by eight thirty. yes, back at the office. i stayed until about eleven thirty; spencer was still working, so i swiped his keys and went back to the apartment and read poppy z brite till i fell asleep. he got home a few hours later, deliriously sleepy and crunching on sour cream n onion chips.

estimated hours of sleep: not enough.

so far today: i treated myself to an iced mocha at starbucks because they're really caffeinated and i'm really sleepy.

current plans for later today: i don't have to go back to brooklyn today that i'm aware of, so i'll probably stay here until eight or so and then go kick some redhead ass at star wars monopoly again.

what else: so i'm assuming that unless you're blind, really unobservant, or come directly to this page instead of going to my site, you've noticed that i redid the layout on caoine.org. also, you'll want to start using caoine.org now instead of odd.thorns.org. right now it redirects, but it won't forever. sign my gbook and let me know what you think of version seven.

today

listening to: typing. in my head? covenant - europa

craving: more weekend. i need two days to go out and play and another two to recover from the first two.

last night: spencer and i were at the office until maybe midnight. we got a bit peckish ["what is it you want to peck, exactly?"] around eleven and got breakfast [yes, breakfast] from this diner a few blocks away. then we wandered home and watched the lost boys and went to sleep.

estimated hours of sleep: the movie was over around two thirty, so i probably got to sleep around three. and i got up at seven. which makes for a whopping four hours of sleep, whee! spencer gets to sleep in until ten, the bastard.

so far today: i just should not be awake right now. blah. but at least i didn't have to deal with the commute from brooklyn. i got up at seven, took a shower in spencer's absurdly-high-water-pressure shower, got dressed in the clothes we bought yesterday, and walked to work. i don't have my bag with me today, as i haven't been home since friday afternoon. i feel sort of... defenseless. i need to go home tonight for more clothes and my bag, i think. my landlord probably thinks i'm dead.

current plans for later today: work until six, then i need to go home for supplies, then i'll probably come back to manhattan to kick spencer's ass at monopoly again.

what else: this shirt i got yesterday is so comfortable. it's a little too big, but it's reeeeally soft and yum.

today

listening to: spencer's interpretation of a covenant song as sung by our favorite wig-wearer.

craving: popcorn. when i was little, we didn't have a microwave at my house. in fact, we didn't have one until i was well into high school. so my mom used to make popcorn in the frying pan, with a little melted butter in the pan and actual popping corn from the farmer's market. then when it was done, she'd melt a little more butter and pour it over the popcorn along with some salt. it always tasted a little burnt, but it was better than microwave popcorn.

last night: spencer and i went to albion. we were both in kind of a mellow mood, but it was fun. we took some pictures, which i'll scan when i get a chance. also, the person who does the coat check there did this really cool caricature of me - i look sort of jhonenized. anne gwish with an emma flavor. i love it; i'll scan it, also.

estimated hours of sleep: we went to sleep around four thirty and woke up noonish... therefore, not enough sleep. i still need to catch up from last week, much less this weekend. blah. i hate starting the week tired.

so far today: we actually managed to get out of bed by one, which i thought was impressive. then we got dressed and had pizza at the place on the corner and headed downtown to canal street, in chinatown, where we did some clothes shopping. not interesting clothes, unfortunately - just plain black and grey stuff for work. chinatown is kind of cool, though. there's all these weird food smells and everything is really... filled. the streets are crowded, the stores are packed with objects, there's signage on all available surfaces - it's just a very well-used space. so that took a while, but we accomplished our mission. wandering around in the sun and the crowd made us kind of tired, though. we went back to spencer's and lazed around for a bit, then headed to the office, where we are now. i'm getting sleepy again, though i just had some coffee so i'm waiting for it to kick in.

current plans for later today: i'm guessing we'll be out of here in an hour or so and then head back to spencer's for star wars trivial pursuit or a movie before bed. i like not having to get up at six in order to get to work at time; i should move back to manhattan permanently.

what else: spencer and i were walking on third avenue today and we passed this touristy average middle class white family. as we walked by, the father gave us this horrified look and shouted "down with satan!". you just have to love new york sometimes, you really do.

today

listening to: the background noise made by a rackful of happy servers.

craving: right now i'm enjoying a starbucks caramel frappucino. these things are orgasmic.

last night: spencer and i were considering going to addiction, but we ended up getting lazy, so we went to his place instead and played a couple games of star wars trivial pursuit. then we watched a fish called wanda and ghostbusters and fell asleep around four am.

estimated hours of sleep: we woke up around noon... so... eightish, i suppose.

so far today: we lazed around for a while, then ordered italian food and played star wars monopoly. we're really into the board game thing at the moment, in case this fact had escaped you. a little while ago we got dressed and wandered down to the office, where we are now.

current plans for later today: probably we'll hang around here for a couple of hours and then go home and get dressed for albion tonight. i'm feeling a little more restless, so we'll probably overcome the laziness and go out.

what else: huzzah. my cell phone works again.