Caoine

today

listening to: cherry poppin daddies - zoot suit riot. well, no. but it would be funny if i were, wouldn't it?

craving: incredibly, i'm still not feeling very rested. i could still do with another few hours of sleep, even after i stayed home yesterday and did essentially nothing else. i think i'm working too hard lately or something.

last night: my educated guess turned out to be completely correct - i decided to forego the joys of lbv and instead watched run lola run and the matrix while i worked on some new ponyfalls i'm making. i have no idea if they're going to come out the way i want them to, but it's fun, anyway. it's the same sort of thing that prompts my grandmother to knit, i think - it's this calming, repetitive, undemanding action that produces this cool result when you're done. except that while she ended up with sweaters and skirts and socks and hats, i'm ending up with lots of fake hair. same idea, though.

so far today: so my rent is due on the first. which i guess would be what, sunday? yeah, i think so. anyway, today is the last weekday before my rent is due, and the last chance i have to hit a bank. because of a miscalculation i made concerning the dates that a) i get paid b) i have to pay bills and c) i have to pay rent, i ended up using what should have been rent money on my bills. which means that the last two hundred dollars of my rent this month will be paid in - get this - quarters and dimes. and some nickels. yes. i have almost two hundred dollars in change, which i've finally sorted and counted and rolled and will be taking to the bank today for its paper equivalent. what i never realized, though, is how royally fucking heavy two hundred dollars in change is. like think how heavy your pocket gets when you've got about three bucks in change, right? it's like pulling your pants down, it's so heavy. now imagine its two hundred dollar equivalent. the straps on my work bag are straining to support its weight. however, i love the idea that i can pay a third of my rent in pocket change. a few months worth of pocket change, maybe, but pocket change nonetheless.

current plans for later today: i have no idea. i'm thinking right now that i'd like to just get through the work day and then hang around the office with spencer in order to maybe finish up the new version of my site. however, i don't know what spencer's up to today. the status quo remains unidentified. so we'll see. i might end up going to dinner with daisu at this snazzy indian place we've been meaning to go to.

what else: the upside of wednesday night's drama? i so rarely get to call someone a vile cunt without feeling bad about it. those who know me in person know that i tend to be very nonconfrontational. presented with agitated screamy people, i generally sort of pretend they aren't there and maintain decorum at all costs. however, once in a very great while someone just crosses the line with me, and then i get to tell the unfortunate soul loudly and at length exactly what i think of him/her.

today

listening to: vnv nation - honour

craving: i just had some of the best damn salsa i've ever had. i got it at the union square greenmarket last weekend and just now tried it - it's so fucking hot. it's great. my eyes are watering.

last night: argh. last night didn't go anywhere near the way it was desired and/or expected to. i was kind of in a bad mood - stressy, a bit pissy maybe. ended up getting hauled into some majorly absurd drama that just so didn't need to take place. and i find it incredible that a certain psychotic freak still had the nerve to call my house afterwards - not acceptable, hun. you lost the rights to my civility.

so far today: stayed home from work today in an attempt to finally get the peace and quiet and de-stressing i originally wanted yesterday, and it's gone rather well. spencer slept at my place - we got curly fries and lime rickies at like one in the morning last night, then collapsed into some really deep sleep, at least on my part. being around spencer always has a certain sort of comforting familiarity that i sometimes underestimate but always appreciate.

so basically i slept all day, which turned out to be more or less exactly what i needed, and i feel on the whole decent today. i'm even toying with the idea of going to long black veil tonight, though that seems unlikely and my plans are still kind of nebulous anyway.

current plans for later today: have yet to be determined. i need to do a bit of work from home, since i didn't go into the office today. might go to long black veil, but i'm making an educated guess that i'll instead watch run lola run again and work on some new ponyfalls i'm making.

what else: last night at the diner, there were these cherries in our lime rickies. i forget what they're called; the ones that they use to garnish drinks. you know. anyway but so i couldn't get the second one out of the glass. i was not up to the challenge. so spencer seizes control of the glass and starts fishing around for it with the straw, eventually just reaching in and grabbing it [the cherry], at which point he threw it at me. it ricocheted off my nose and landed on the table where, because of the force of the impact and being soaked in lime rickey, it burst.

so yeah, spencer popped my cherry.

today

listening to: sublime. one of my coworkers is playing it. eugh.

craving: a grilled cheese on rye

last night: stayed at the office till about eight, working with spencer on the new version of my site. it's looking pretty cool, though nothing like what i expected it would turn out. it's nearly done, but there's still a little more i need to finish. i'm tentatively suggesting it'll be done by the end of the weekend, depending on how busy i am at work.

so far today: gah. the applet for the irc server at thorns.org got listed on the site of the creator of the applet, meaning that the channel is now filling with all these random people, some of whom are highly annoying. if there's one thing in this world that i hate, it's probably cabbage. but script kiddies are right up there on the list, lemme tell ya.

current plans for later today: staying late after work to do some more stuff for the site. php is a wonderful, wonderful thing.

what else: i need to buy a toaster.

today

listening to: nothing at the moment. on the train i was listening to funker vogt - maschine zeit

craving: the weather is so fucking wonderful now. it's been gray and cold and slightly drizzly for the past few days - i love it. i actually wore my coat to work this morning - the first time since last spring. this kind of weather makes me crave hot cider.

last night: stayed at work till about seven or so, then i had to go run some errands. it's so weird leaving work and having it be dark, and indeed having it be dark when i'm walking to the train in the morning. this will be my first fall in brooklyn - this time last year i was living in manhattan still. i'm thinking i might have a halloween party or something. it would mean i'd have to get my apartment finished fairly soon, though, and i'm not sure fundage is going to allow for that.

so far today: today would have been such the morning to sleep in, all comfy in my layers and layers of bedding... i almost called in sick so i could catch up on my sleep, but i know i'd regret it once payday comes around. so i dragged myself out of bed through my morning routine. i've got to buy a coffee maker.

current plans for later today: work till six or so, as usual. after that, i'm not sure. i'm rested enough that i don't really want to go straight home and collapse, so maybe i'll see who's free for a bit. i haven't gone clubbing or anything in a couple of weeks and i'm feeling a little out of the loop.

what else: people never cease to amaze me. it seems i live in a world in which a friend will steal my wallet, while complete strangers will send me money. not only is the caffeine fund doing rather surprisingly well, but cath, sweetheart that she is, sent me a cdnow gift certificate. i love you cath!

today

listening to: it's interesting to hear how other people type. you can tell how intensely they're working, sometimes. i know when i'm really concentrating on something, my typing is fast and furious. spencer, too. he really throws the keyboard a beating when he's trying to work quickly. and then you can tell when someone's just sitting there reading slashdot, because their typing just sort of peters off.

craving: it was cold this morning. i left my windows open all night and buried myself under my huge comfy blanket. i even changed the bedding to flannel sheets. so yummy. i always sleep better when it's cold out. i sort of wish i'd had my coat, though - i left it at the office over the weekend. so i was shivering as i walked to the train station, but i infinitely prefer to shiver than to sweat. i stopped for hot chocolate and sipped it while i waited for the train. bliss.

last night: i successfully managed to navigate the entire day without getting fully dressed or leaving my house. go me. around three or four i took a long hot bath and was so relaxed that i started dozing off in the tub. i woke up when the water was getting chilly and took a quick shower to wash my hair, then got put on one of spencer's supercomfy shirts that has somehow managed to find its way into my posession and read in cold blood for most of the rest of the day.

so far today: i would have loved to continue yesterday's laziness, but it's monday. dammit. monday is just so very depressing. there's a new guy starting at work today - it's making me recall my first day here, which was almost six months ago. heh. i remember running around that morning trying to find something to wear that was presentable enough, since i'd worn my only really decent outfit to the interview a few days earlier. i was terrified of my boss. i got to the office so early that i had to kill time in the diner around the corner, and i was still one of the first ones here. and i was so nervous that when spencer and i went out for lunch we'd come back late and get yelled at. heehee.

current plans for later today: i have this really depressing pile of mundane stuff waiting for me to finish - i keep putting it off because it's so dull. i mean, some of it doens't even really require a human to do it - a perl script could probably do it faster, but my perl isn't quite firm enough that i'm ready to test it on a slew of live pages that would be difficult to fix if i fucked up. so it's just going to take hours of me sitting here, tweaking code. bleh.

what else: i have to say, i'm really impressed with the way the caffeine fund is going. once i get a bit more, i'll order something from thinkgeek and send pictures to everyone who donated, or something like that.

today

listening to: london after midnight - psycho magnet

craving: right now i'm savouring a clove and an apple. i'm all set.

last night: yesterday was good, if a bit too warm. got up early [too early] and had breakfast at reggio with justin, then headed to the farmers' market in union square. got lots of apples, fresh veggies, flowers.

met up with spencer at the office around one, where we spent the rest of the day catching up on work that needed to get done and feasting on ziti. much snapple consumed and vnv listened to. headed home around midnight and fell immediately asleep, and didn't wake up until about noon today.

so far today: today has been gloriously lazy. i haven't even gotten dressed, much less left the house. i'm in my most comfortable nonclothes - my brother's old pajama pants and an old shirt of spencer's. i've been reading and sleeping and generally enjoying the sunday. i love fall, and i love weekends. too bad i have to work tomorrow.

current plans for later today: i'll probably work on my site for a bit, then go to sleep. exciting, no?

what else: i never thought anyone would actually donate to the caffeine fund! that's so cool! thanks to the person who suggested it and to everyone who's donated.

today

listening to: not a whole hell of a lot. see, office policy on listening to music during working hours is kind of weird. on the one hand, yes we're allowed to listen to music, but on the other hand, it has to be very quiet, can't be through headphones [we wouldn't hear the phone ring, maybe?], and in my case, has to be something all five people who share this office area can tolerate. so sometimes we all decide to listen to something, but usually it's more trouble than it's worth and we work to only the accompaniment of our own typing and the tempramental air conditioner.

craving: ginger snaps. hell yeah.

last night: went to go see the cell again, this time with jamar. and would you believe it - my wallet didn't get stolen this time! woo! so now i think i may have neutralized the negative associations i had with the movie. well, okay, so maybe i didn't really have any negative associations with it, but at least now i've seen it twice. incidentally, it's visually pretty cool. while that person - you know who i mean, the annoying one who sings or something - while she is unsurprisingly less than impressive, the film as a whole kicks my ass. i believe that the twisted savant responsible for the nin closer video was somehow involved - though that's like something i heard from someone who thought maybe he might have heard it from some guy over there or something. i'm exaggerating, clearly, but it's for a good cause.

estimated hours of sleep: good lord. estimated hours of sleep? what kind of crack was i, shall we say, smoking when i came up with that one? mail me or something if you actually care how much sleep i get. although, i suppose those of you who actually read this on a regular basis must be assumed to have a higher-than-average tolerance for the pointless and the space-wasting. but you know i love you, baby.

so far today: oh and i'd just like to take this opportunity to not only acknowledge the fact that i didn't post yesterday, but also to point out that i'm not at all apologetic about that oversight. neener neener neener.

oh yeah. today and stuff. well, you know. i mean today has just been so wonderfully not unusual that i wouldn't want to break the spell by describing it. like the electron thing. come on, you know what i mean.

current plans for later today: well! let's see here. it's now mid morning. round about, say, twelve or one i'm probably going to make the epic journey to the deli down the street and get me some noodles. i might, if i'm feeling adventurous, stop in at the pet place and see the cats. probably not, though. i do that enough that it's starting to seem almost sinister, or at the very least faintly indicative of ocd-induced behavior. so i'll go back to work, where i'll stay until around six or seven, at which point i'm going to - get this - go home. a shocking deviation from the norm, eh? oh wait, no it's not.

what else: mmmmmmmm. the mac os x public beta is out, you know. when this thing is stable you just know i'm never going to leave the house. come on, it's a unix on which i can run photoshop. drool-inducing, to say the least.

if you've ever seen zeldman.com [and if you're enough of a webgeek to be reading this, you probably have], or if you're not some sort of debilitatingly humorless vegetable-creature, go read the newest diesel sweeties.

updated 11:34 am: oh god, i've been reading the diesel sweeties archives and the memories of amusement past is just too much. this one i'm mentioning just for kate because i think that she'll see the humor, especially if i include the word gollum in the same sentence. and i'm continuing the link-crazed madness with this strip for exactly the same reasons.

today

listening to: the voices in my head. they're talkative today.

craving: pepitas

last night: stayed late at the office with spencer and worked a bit on the new version of caoine, which i'm hoping to have up within the next... say... five days. maybe more; we'll see how busy i am.

estimated hours of sleep: who knows. who cares, really. assume something like six.

so far today: waded through my mail, met with my boss, read with horror the list of things i have to get done before i go home tonight.

current plans for later today: looks like i'll be here late. i'd like to head out to electra-city later, but as that involves going home to brooklyn to get dressed first, it sort of depends on what time i get out of here.

what else: here's just a chunk of what's still on the buyme list for my apartment:

• these chili pepper lights, or possibly these instead. maybe both?
• believe it or not, i want something from the martha stewart site: this spiderweb rocks my world.
• i want another futon to use as a couch and/or bed in my living room, for when people crash at my place. i like
  this frame, with a black mattress and a couple of pillows like
  these, or maybe like the ones i saw the other day at urban outfitters.
• the holdeverything store has these kickass black cast iron shelving sets. i want one for my kitchen. failing that, these shelves are kind of nice, if a bit fancy.
• i already have several candle holders [in fact, i have three of these], but i think i want some more. i dig this to go on my kitchen table, and i'd also want something free-standing for the living room area.
• i've already got a small assortment of dishes and such, stuff that i've bought and stuff that spencer left here, but i'm definitely going to need more. i like this set quite a bit. i
  also like this bowls and chopsticks set.
• i need a coffee maker, and i figure i might as well get a decent one. i've got my eye on one from starbucks.
• i dig this coffee table for my living room.

today

listening to: my own typing. how zen.

craving: more coffee. i'm summoning the motivation to make the epic journey to the third-floor coffee maker. did i mention that i don't like working on the basement level?

last night: yesterday was deliciously unproductive. i didn't even wake up until around two, at which point there was just no other option than to accept the fact that i was going to have to be lazy all day. so i took a very long bath and listened to the cure for a while, then found some clothes and wandered over to the store, where they not only didn't yell at me for paying for my popcorn in change, they asked if i had any more because they were running low. i returned to my apartment with the successfully acquired popcorn and watched run lola run and the matrix, then whiled away the rest of the afternoon in a books and literature channel. i considered working on one of the many projects i have waiting for me, both personal and professional, but i just didn't. so nyeah.

estimated hours of sleep: it was weird; i fell asleep reading, so all the lights were still on and i was still in my cargo pants [a high school relic thefted from my parents' house the last time i visited them] and bacardi limón shirt [hey, it's black and it's comfy and it has a little bat on it. and they gave it to me free when jamar and i went to señor swanky's a while back]. i woke up a few times and fell asleep again before i actually bothered to go turn off lights and whatnot.

so far today: my major accomplishment this morning was causing a paper jam in the xerox machine upstairs. go emma go!

current plans for later today: dunno yet. it's monday morning, i haven't thought past my second cup of coffee much less as far ahead as tonight.

what else: yeah, that bothers me too.

today

listening to: vnv nation - praise the fallen

craving: something for breakfast. although at this point i suppose it counts as lunch.

last night: yesterday i went into manhattan at around one, and browsed the greenmarket in union square for a while. a girl i've never met before bought me some of these gorgeous ivory-colored roses, which are now on my kitchen table. they're beautiful. i met up with spencer around three or four, and we walked to 7A for lunch. spencer had his usual grilled vegetable sandwich, and i ended up trying these weird potato pancakes. good stuff, though. after lunch, we walked to the f train at houston and went to my house. the theory was that spencer was going to take the rest of his stuff that's been sitting at my place, but we ended up playing final fantasy until around two in the morning, with a couple of breaks for coffee coolattas and naan at the indian place. at that point we were getting kind of tired, so we read until about three thirty, when we fell asleep.

estimated hours of sleep: i'm not sure how many hours of sleep i ended up getting. but it's like two and i just woke up.

so far today: nothing, really. added more water to the glass the roses are in. marvelled at the fact that it's two and i just woke up. since i haven't been clubbing much lately [too poor and too tired from work], i'm used to waking up no later than eleven.

current plans for later today: not sure. i'll probably clean my apartment a bit and watch run lola run again. i have absolutely zilch in terms of cash, so i suppose breakfast will not be happening. at least i get paid thursday.

what else: bah. i tripped on this shitty sidewalk yesterday and now there's like this gaping wound in my palm. it makes it a bitch to type, though i suppose it's better than having a gaping wound on my fingertips.