Caoine

today

ok. so i more or less keep very personal stuff strictly offline, at least as far as talking about other people goes, but i'm making an exception right now. when i broke up with adam last year, it was really difficult for me. we'd been together nine months or so, but things quickly deteriorated when i moved to new york. it wasn't unexpected, but it still hurt. since then, i haven't really been involved with anyone on any kind of serious level. that's all sort of changed in the past couple of months, though. when i met jim, i knew he was special but i didn't know i was going to fall for him so completely, and so quickly. he's made me a very happy girl, and i just want to take this opporunity to say that i love him very much.

on a less serious note, i had a blast on saturday night. i wore my new hair out for the first time - it looks like this, more or less, except without the beads and with red as a secondary color instead of white. i also had two non-dreaded red streaks, just below chin length, at in the front on either side of my face, and a pair of black goggles. i did a more glittery [and less smudgy, thanks to some new brushes i bought at ricky's] version of my standard red makeup, and wore it all with a black pvc buckled waist cincher, pvc bra, red fishnet shirt, enormous floofy black petticoat, and stompy black boots. it was really fun getting all dolled up, as i've been too busy to bother going out much lately. didn't get any pictures [derek brought my camera, but i'd forgotten it didn't have a memory card in it], but no doubt i'll be wearing a similar getup again soon, especially as hepkitten will be arriving in new york on thursday. i will get photos, i promise. anyway, there were a bunch of people at albion who i hadn't seen in ages - james and his girlfriend, for example. i hadn't seen james in literally months, and seeing him again made me realize that we need to hang out more, because he's one of those people i like to have in my life. and there are precious few of those people as it is. sarah was there, also - it was her last night in new york, so she wasn't exactly thrilled, but i'm glad i got to see her one more time at least. spencer was there, avoiding his psychotic ex, who never ceases to amaze me. i guess amaze is one word for it. 'horrify', 'nauseate', 'induce strong physical sensations of disgust' would also work, though. let's see, who else. the usual batcave crew, as in dino and manny and naomi and everyone. obie was there too, looking even more adorable [if that's possible]. then also derek and his sister, and some of jim's other friends who i don't know as well. anyway. all in all, it was a good time.

i slept most of sunday. i woke up briefly around two pm, but ended up crawling back in bed with jim because i cold and still sleepy. i didn't wake up again until just before six pm, and jim woke up sevenish. we got subs from subway and worked for a while, taking a break at one point to play some tekken. even though i wasn't really sleepy yet, given that i'd only woken up about six hours earlier, i made myself go to bed around midnight so i wouldn't be too dead today. seems to have worked - i've got the usual morning-sleepiness going on, but i'm not exhausted or anything.

anyway. work calls. ta.

today

i don't don't know if you've ever played parappa the rapper, but if you have than you'll understand exactly the complicated tangle of sensations implied when i say that i've got the soundtrack stuck in my head. on the one hand, it's deliriously addictive. and on the other hand, it's deleriously addictive. what a quandary!

you know what? gabe is, quite simply, the man. as a sort of thank you for the design i did for penny arcade, he's drawn me. it's amazing. you can see the full-color version of this masterpiece here, and check out a black and white version at gamespy's daily victim for yesterday. i have to admit, i'm tickled pink - my favorite line from the victim commentary is "I did not come from outer space to mate with you". i'm going to have to find somewhere more permanent to link to that, but for now, check it out and share in my glee.

i'm heading into manhattan shortly to meet up with gundam and spencer. we're going to do the shopping thing for a bit, and then i'm returning to crooklyn to get ready for albion tonight. jim and i are venturing out again, finally, so that should be fun.

today

so i'm home, and stuff - waiting for verizon to not show up for the dsl installation date again. still, i'm not complaining - it's a good excuse to take a day off work. speaking of work, i'm quitting. i've had enough of the grotesque parody of humanity that calls itself my boss. she's in vegas right now, but i'm giving notice when she comes home. money's not a problem right away - i've got some, and then also i'm going to be working for jim for a while just about the same salary i'm getting now. anyway, i'm not going to think about it anymore right now because i'll just get mad at my boss again, and i have no desire to spoil my good mood.

i am, in fact, in a really good mood - i'm polishing up penny arcade and starting on one of my own projects that i've put off for ages because i've been so busy. i've also finally got some time to work on my dad's site, which i want to get done as soon as possible.

was playing with some new fake hair last night. fun fun. i'm hoping to finally get out this weekend and take some pictures, too, so that should be cool. but right now, i think i'm going back to bed. yay!

today

you know, i really ought to dabble in this "sleep" thing more often - my brief dalliance with it last night has left me in an infinitely improved mood and i can actually sit in once place for more than five minutes without dozing off [now, it takes me ten or fifteen minutes]!

anyway. i'm going to say this once, in hopes of stemming the flood of questions i'm getting on irc and in mail: if you're coming here from penny arcade to complain about the mysql errors yesterday, you're coming to the wrong webchick. efront were having some issues yesterday because there were too many connections; as far as i know that's been taken care of though. this is not to say i don't want your feedback on the site, however! i am just a little weary of explaining that no, i didn't break the site. that said, thanks for all the comments on the new design! most of them made me smile, a few made me giggle, and one or two made me check dictionaries of foreign slang, but all in all i am most definitely feelin' the love.

ohh. i just remembered i'm not coming into the office tomorrow, which makes today feel like a friday. joy! my dsl installation date has been rescheduled [again] for tomorrow, so someone needs to be at the house - and that someone is me, baby, especially since jim was good enough to haul ass over there from long island on the day after christmas, when i was still in boston for the last time they scheduled this thingy. of course, they never actually showed up last time. what fun!

i am in clubbing withdrawl. i haven't been out in like three weeks, what with christmas and then the snowstorm last weekend and everything, and i'm dying to get all dolled up and dance till my feet hurt. there's lbv tonight, but i'm not sure i'll want to go, after i get home from work today and am all comfy at the house. i dunno if jim would want to go, either, and i doubt i'll be in the mood to make the manhattan trek by myself. so, more likely, i'll end up going out saturday night, which is fine. maybe i'll finally get some new pictures.

today

good lawd! it's only been a couple of days, but what a couple of days they've been. my design for penny arcade is up and running, or least kind of twitching convulsively - tycho and i are still polishing it up and such, but it's there anyway, and i'm happy with it. it's so not the kind of style i usually design in, but on the whole it's been the most enjoyable design project i've tackled in a while. it's probably got a lot to do with the fact that i was working with two people whose work i adore and have admired for ages. tycho, in particular, r0x0rz muh s0x0rz.

right, so it's 2001 [two thousand and one!] now. i've gotten a great deal of mail asking what i did on new year's eve, a phenomenon i find rather curious. but to answer you all at once: i did more or less nothing, and loved it. manhattan being a very, very crowded place on that particular night and me being not at all fond of crowds that size, jim and i stayed in with some chinese food and the dreamcast. it was more or less a usual night for us - a little dinner, a little working on our various projects, a little gaming, and a lot of cuddling.

hey: if you know me offline and i haven't been returning your mail or calls or whatever, i am hereby begging forgiveness. it's just been a crazy few weeks, with the last few days sort of capping it all off. i've had a total of two hours of sleep over the past two nights, with last night including exactly none. there's just something wrong when getting dressed for work consists of changing out of the previous day's work clothes.

i was listening to liz phair this morning (!) and it reminded me of last year at nyu, when chrissy and i used to run around in our pj's singing that shit at the top of our lungs. it was predicatably cathartic, of course. chrissy! i love you baby! mail me!